Feeling terrible and horrible whatever you name it. Last night my eyes had been swollen, and it had only gotten worst this morning. What's more add on with blocked nose and a bang in the thigh you'll get a combination of three pain in the ass treatment today, oh! and before I forgot that includes having three ulcers in the mouth. Gosh! Once again down with holiday-withdrawal syndrome, hoping that this holiday would last longer although half way through it I was hoping that school could have start sooner. But strike that out, definitely more holidays for the win!!! Since I'm currently back to obsessing with anime and sims 3, so I'm only hoping for this "fine" moment to last longer... which I doubt could be even possible, because obviously time and tide waits for no one and it's only about one week till the mark of the year final end.

Definitely one of the happiest day for me. Initially I was really really nervous, just thinking about receiving the results makes me feel nauseous. It was only after receiving the results that I'm relief. I'm seriously happy for those who are promoted, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm crestfallen over the fact that some of the people I care about couldn't make it. I felt so helpless at the same time that I can't do anything to cheer them up or help them. In my opinion, sometimes life is just cruel but sometimes it is because life is cruel that we are able to pick up from where we drop [跌倒了再爬起来]. Nobody in this world can help us walk our path or go through our life except ourselves, so what I'm trying to say is don't just give up since opportunity are given to those who are prepared [机会是给有准备的人]... So all in all it is only us, that could only make decision for ourselves.

Anyway many thanks to the teachers and friends who teaches me and supported me. Once again thanking liqin for asking me not to give up on art and for helping me with my art. Thanking Mrs liang for being patient and giving us lots of guide for maths, Mr low for history SBQ and SEQ even though it didn't turn out as he expected, Mr ong for giving lots of SBQ practice and for predicting the question for SEQ correctly, definitely a savior [^.^] Mrs tan and Mr nicholas too for giving tons of practice though I think I slack my science a bit [;_;] not forgetting Mr faizal too, who help me with my art paper 2. Seriously, the most unexpected result on my result slip is art. I couldn't believe that I could get grade 3 for it since I'm totally hopeless on art and only aimed for a 5. Nevertheless, I'm happy and contented with my results.

results:
English- 3 [^.^]
maths- 1 [^u^]
combined humanities- 1 [^v^]
science- 2 ["_"]
art- 3 [*u*]
Chinese- 2 ["_"]
overall English + maths + best 3 = 9

Having lot's of fun today. Since Liqin said she was bored and wanted to ask if I'm available so she could come over. We catch up on lot's of stuffs and it's a given that both of us are worried about our results for tomorrow. I'm really thankful and don't known how much to thank her for giving me a quite big 馒头plushie, it's so cute and cuddly!!! Anyway also must thank her for giving my brother baby taz plushie also known as baby tasmanian. I think I must have thank her alot for today [>.<] But it doesn't hurts to say another thank you to you for doing this much. So ほんとにありがとうございます [^.^]!

Less than a day till the decisive results. Most might be in panic mode, nervous and panicking about their result, I'm not different. Really and definitely nervous, just thinking about it makes me feel nauseous and hands cold. But worried a not, it doesn't change the fact that nothing could be done now even if we tried. So the least I think I could do is pray that those who I care for get the results they wanted... Wishing good luck to them all...

Was quite an exhausting day today... I mean yesterday... since it's 1am+, the start of a new day. Despite being tired and all, I'm having the strongest urge to change my blog skin. Gosh! It's been really long since my blog was this "bright". I mean up until recent years my blog has been using black or dark skins. It really was a big stepped for me to step out of my comfort spot. I guess most must have known the reason why I usually use black colored blog. The answer is simple enough... All I wanted was to hide. There are some past and personal feelings that I would rather "hide" in a way by camouflaging it with the blog. But it's no more now I guess... the past might be revealed but, there's always a new way to hide the present.

Anyway, counting down to days of result. It's lesser than four days now...

updated 3.34 pm: Having Charlie and the Chocolate factory frenzy! Falling deeply and deeply in love with this movie. I could still remember that it was the first movie I watch in the cinema which was on August 8th 2005, the date I first stepped into the cinema like. Ever since then, I've tried to watch the movie online but most sites seems to be only giving me dead links and even though I tried borrowing from my friends, they would forget to bring and that matter was left unattended till I myself forgotten. Fortunately, I finally found one site that stream and allows you to download it the same time. So lucky me [^o^]....

Feeling really fortunate on this regular Saturday. Reason being, I have both parents who loves teasing my brother, which I find it really funny to watch his reaction. Fortunately enough my father don't usually tease me with the exception of my mother, who does. How their teasing goes by is very simple, my parents would call my brother to do lots of stuff and my brother would usually retort by saying 'why never call sister always call me'. Then they make used of the reason saying I'm a 'girl' and his a growing up man and of course, naturally, a man does the work. I would be there adding oil to fire increasing his frustration and annoyance by calling him 'di' just like an alarm clock who does. Most would've wondered why I'm finding happiness in this... The reason is simple enough... I'm spending time with all of them... A mahjong session... A lunch or dinner together... Watching the television together... cold wars between the two tiger stop... or just going out and spending quality time together is a simple act enough to fill me with happiness.

This brings back to last week. My father is a joker, and my mother is a... well you'll get the idea when you get to know her. Last week when my brother accompanied my father to his work and on the way to have his passport renewed, while crossing the road... my brother held on to my father's hand! [just like a little boy] I wish I could have saw that but instead imagining that scene in my mind is equally amusing... Of course my brother insisted that all this aren't true and that it was my father that held onto his hand while they were crossing the road treating him like a kid. Naturally, I teased him saying I would blog this and let the whole world know just what a kid he is... But that's what I intended and am doing it. So sorry :p It is quite an entertaining news to me after all.

Anyway back to the present, a regular Saturday means I'll be off with at my relative house chanting... which I find the experience somewhat tiring and heart warming. The reason why it is tiring is because initially we only had to chant for one hour... but that has been extended to one and a half hours to two hours and then back to one and a half hours fortunately. I could have swore that I've black out a few second while chanting with my mouth still moving. My brother's story was even more hard to believe as he said he black out for fifty minutes with his mouth moving. Anyway the heart warming part is at least we are able to give our support and care to my aunt whose battling with the sickness. And not forgetting we get to sit down and have dinner with my relative to strengthen our bonds. Today was quite an exceptional dinner because instead of eating the usual '煮炒' we were eating Indian cuisine for a change. Everything was so tasty! And don't mind me acting like a '井底之蛙' but the fact that it is my first time eating green-colored chicken [?] which I don't have a clue it existed until today was quite tasty too. It tasted somewhat like mutton and chicken.

[notice there is green chicken among it]

Also finished watching the movie bandslam which was somewhat hilarious and entertaining. People who loves 'High School Musical', 'Camp Rocks', 'Another Cinderella Story' would like me, definitely enjoy this movie.

updated at 10:40 pm

Seriously nothing to blog these days except for the fact that I find a peculiar blog entertaining. No offence really, and I won't say whose blog I'm referring to. The reason why I find that peculiar blog entertaining because I don't usually visit people's blog regularly and only does it once in a while to get 'updated' with how everyone is doing. However, after stumbling onto that particular blog... I almost visit it frequently to have a good laugh. Seriously, I mean it no offence... If anyone know who I'm referring to please just do me a favor and keep it to yourself. Can't say I'm laughing at it's immaturity since I, myself is no where mature and I don't want to be seen as someone whose tactless and laughing at the precious feelings of other's when they are serious because I actually respect their feelings and opinions. Enough of my ranting... still I apologize to that person for laughing at their feelings and opinion and maybe in the near future I would have most probably forget who I'm referring to. So let bygones be bygones. By the way, don't assume its your blog just by reading this post since it could be anyone but you.

Anyway another attempt of making a wallpaper but this time for the anime 'kimi ni todoke' also known as 'reaching you'. Though not the best and hopefully not the worst, I tried making it in a darker theme despite the fact that this is actually a really bright and awesome romance anime. It is also quite a simple looking wallpaper due to the fact that I don't want the desktop icons to cover any part of the picture and thus making space for them. Critics welcome.

[click image for enlargement]

Seriously wishing that the results for the exams will be out soon. I'm having nightmares often... especially when I tend to think about the results before I sleep and the mistake I made and things that I could have done to make it better. I truthfully hope that all this would come to an end soon, its definitely nerve wracking. The dreams I experienced about the actual day would usually end up in a bad way, I would wake up half way into the morning with my heart pounding. Gosh! I really must LEARN! If this was an experience that I wasn't keen on experiencing why didn't I work to avoid this in the first place? UGH! But then the past will not be re-written, and the past will follow me whenever I go and whatever I done... Just like what had happened two years ago... If I wasn't that naive in the first place... perhaps that would never had happen... enough said... and like I always said... I hope all will end well for the people I care and for myself....